Holding On...

6 months...

How time flies

People say time heals everything

But I guess they've never really

Lost their best fiend in the world

How do I learn to live without you?

I've tried and failed...

I think the key is not to forget

But to remember

The littlest memories and most discreet moments

I will cherish 'us' forever

Because no one can understand me

The way you did...the way you do

I'll think of you always

And I know you'll show me the way...

An Ode to J&J

20 years down the line,

When I look back at college

I will think of you

And remember the insanity

And good times too

I know that you two

Will always be the ones

That put the smile on my face

And the song in my heart

Playing at a merry pace

In life, we get to know

People from all walks of life

But only a few

Touch our hearts, draw us in and

Completely change our worldview

You have been my friends,

My mentors, my inspiration

And above all, my family

In a place so different and new

And for that I just want to say,

Thank you and I love you...

Someone Like You...

You know how the time flies

Only yesterday was the time of our lives...

Homesick…

When you lay in bed late at night

And that funny feeling grips you from within

When the tears flow without reason

And the flood of memories begin

When ma’s arms and mangsho’r jhol - bhaat

Seem like the perfect cure

And being alone in an alien world

Is more than you can endure

Homesick...

So close to Christmas but so far away from home…

In Life...

In life, we face many crossroads
And as time draws the curtains on college,
We are faced with one of many
From this moment, we know
That friends will grow distant and careers
Will grow omnipresent and yet,
I hold that flicker of hope in my heart
That some day, somewhere, some how,
We will all find time for each other
The departed and the present
We will all come together and rejoice,
Celebrate what has become of our lives

But, for now, we must wait
Wait for life to take its course
For things to happen...both good and bad
To fall in love and out, to find happiness
And drive out darkness
Nobody can deny that life is made
Of both good and bad
And now, on the threshold of a new journey,
We must embrace both sides
We must recognize their presence and
Hope that the former far outshines the latter

We will close our hearts to friends and foes
Bury our heads in work and careers
And yet, somewhere, in some bone in our bodies
We will feel the need to unite with those we love
To confide in those that understand
And to hold close those that matter the most
At these times, I will close my eyes and think
Of all those beautiful moments spent...
Laughing, crying, joking, loving, dancing, drinking...
With all of you...

To the distant future which might find us together again,
I bid you come quickly
We must not tarry in our worldly ways....

Pujo...

Why Do I Do That?

When things seem perfect and everything's alright, why do I go out of my way to mess it up? ALWAYS! When I have someone who loves me, why do I put it at stake for something fleeting, something inconsequential? Why do I create trouble for those around me? Why do I do that? Why do I do that? Bad decisions...all the time...!! And then I get stuck...stuck on him, stuck on her...stuck on friendships that bring nothing but despair and torment...every single day. Do I let people use me? Only if I care enough...but is that right? Should it happen? Should I do it??? WHY?!?!??!!?!??!?! I can't stop thinking about this...it's tearing me up..what if I'm the cause??? What if I'm the instrument??? What if I'm THAT person?!?!!??!?! How do I get over it? Why can't I leave emotions by the wayside?!?!?!? People are important but they aren't EVERYTHING! I'm perfectly alright...by myself..I want nothing...I need nothing but everybody needs something...isn't that true??? Who did this? Only one word comes to mind...'ME'. What's going on with me? Why can't I deal with life? How can I feel this way???? Is that guilt I see..crawling in through the back door? Who left that door open? When is it right for certain people to do certain things and when does it become wrong? The constant dilemma...the desperate need for hope...why make yourself needy?!?!?!? Where is the strength???? What's going on?!?!?!?!? There are bigger things to concentrate on...look at the big picture...deal with it on your own...nobody to talk to...so empty inside...torture....despair...misfortune....life's wheel keeps turning...someday it will stop...and we can evaluate then...until then...MOVE ON!