Revelation....

Memories...moments captured...never to be released...a fascinating new year's eve...north calcutta at midnight...torches and "greek" bonfires...the warmth of the fire mingled with the cold night air...the whiteness of the moon in a cloudless sky...the beat of trance fused with intoxicating smoke...a new experience...a new fascination..."modes of elevation" in every corner..rolling and blowing...leather jackets....old columns and a huge 'thakurdalan'...the warmth of friendship...and love...warm arms...and butterflies....hopelessly in love...wid the atmosphere....connecting with an old friend...shocks...highs...pain and complete intoxication....burning pride...and fondness...fear...unhappiness...unreal reality...concern..affection...embarrassment...an amalgamation of feelings, experiences and emotions....what a way to start the new year!!! Welcome 2007.....(It just couldn't get better than this.....).......

The Final Plunge....

" the smell of fish, the salty breeze and the cackling of the gulls engulfed her as she struggled to keep her eyes open...everything was fading away...slowly but reassuringly...as the blackness took over a ray of light appeared...she groped for the light and moved closer...as she moved..the light grew...larger and larger...till she was sitting on a ferry...his arms were around her...she remembered that day...it was her birthday...and what a special one...he had told her about a surprise...and she had waited for it impatiently...she knew he loved her and she could tell he wanted to take the plunge...it was the perfect place too...in the vast blue Bay of Bengal...nothin but water all around...songbirds in the air...and soft green palms framed against a blue sky...she had always imagined it this way...as she stood on the deck...watching herself in his arms...she wondered how things could change so drastically...she watched him unveil the ring...and whisper vows of everlasting love....the lights faded and though she wanted to hold on to that moment she knew she had to move on...a veil of black again and then the sweet notes from a piano...floating up to her...luring her...she moved forward and saw herself once more...on the alter...taking her vows...she watched him smile...the brilliant sparkle in his eyes...the one she loved now but would later fear...she knew they were happy...and the wedding bells rang as the memory faded...screams of agony...cries of fear....she was drawn once more into another memory...there he was...but with a striking difference...no smile..no hug...no kiss....just strong arms...pinning her down...choking her...striking her with the whip on her bare midriff...her sari nearly torn....the sparkle in his eye...the merriment on his face...the screams and cries faded...her eyes opened once more to see him kneeling over her....he had finally done it...taken the final plunge...in the same place she had given herself to him...he had taken her life...as she lay on the deck...blood running down her breast...the silver bullet embedded deep within her heart...she placed in his palm the ring that had given her new life and finally taken it from her..."

The Answer is Blowing in the Wind!!!!!

*The winds of time blow over me as i stand back and watch the memories fly past...so many smiles, so many tears....the joy, the laughter and the pain....a kaleidoscope of emotions...all over too soon...nostalgia grips me as i fade into a world of oblivion.....*

"Those Were The Best Days of My Life!!"

Baby Steps....

A new experience....a new feeling....starting something new....thats what life is all about anyway...isnt it???? soo today....on the threshold of a brand new year....id like to start a brand new blog....a record of what will be....with this...i take baby steps into a new world of words...a vent to all that i think and feel......